Tuesday, October 28, 2008
I came back form the German Club very angry of my self, blaming myself for being the queen of procrastination because of my constant delay in writing my PhD. I actually can't provide a reasonable excuse for myself if being asked of why I am NOT writing/researching! I believe that I CAN defeat any challenges, jump over stones, smash obstacles ( and what a lot we have these days!) My supervisor thinks I am almost done. I can't tell him that I can't finish chapter one.Why? I don't know. It's because I am the greatest procrastinator. Few minutes ago, I stumbled upon these quotes.They just came in the right time to touch my nerves.I wish I will not be a PhD withdrawal. Any moral back up out there??
"Waiting is a trap. There will always be reasons to wait. The truth is, there are only two things in life, reasons and results, and reasons simply don't count."
"You were placed on this earth to create, not to compete."
"Act as if you have already achieved your goal and it is yours."
"If you don't change your beliefs, your life will be like this forever. Is that good news?"
"When you blame others, you give up your power to change."
"Overcoming fear and worry can be accomplished by living a day at a time or even a moment at a time. Your worries will be cut down to nothing."
On Sunday, October 26, I received an invitation from Dafne and Tersa to join the beautiful baw09 team. It was a very difficult decision to take. My life is not organized, my daughter Haneen needs my help and support as she will be sitting for the High School exams in March 2009, my little kido needs to be sit with doing her homework ( KG2), my PhD work is paused due to procrastination, my teaching schedule is not included, as I got a very reasonable teaching load this semester. So, after praying Istikhara, I sent the below reply to baw 2009 team:
"Well, as it's a belated introduction and all are full of reading intros, I would better make it a short one.
For those who don¡¦t know me, I am Hala Fawzi, a short and elegant:-)
teacher from Khartoum, Sudan, since 1994, a mother since 1992 and a
proud a webhead since 2005. I was a co-moderator in baw06, a
moderator in baw07 and now I am with baw2009 beautiful team.
I work in a private university, teaching ESP. Also, I am an English
Instructor at Faculty of Education, the Open University of Sudan,
teaching Literature and Linguistics to in-service teachers. I am a
PhD student researching about the use of blended learning in EFL
classroom, especially in a developed country like mine. My interests
are; CALL, blended learning, Web 2.0 in ELT, and teacher
professional development, online or on site.
Glad to be on board with great teachers and educators!
Happy new EVO!!"